Sorrow

Feeling a lot of sorrow...have mixed feelings about this emotion as I consider the disciples just before that first Easter as they watched Jesus suffer, then die...here I am, centuries later and KNOW HE rose and lives.  I've often sung that Easter Hymn about I serve a risen savior.  But here I am, with deep feelings of sorrow as I see and watch and hear about so much pain in our world and in my family.  I know in my head God is all power, all seeing, all present.  I know in my head HE is in control.  I know HE has plans for our family.  Yet, I am FULL of fear and all of the "what if" thoughts.  Can I let go?  Will I let go?  I can't control anything anyway...I want to want to want to TRUST HIM.